::Merry Christmas to You!

From our family to yours, we wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a terrific New Year!

Love to all!!

::Taking A Little Break

If you haven't noticed, I haven't blogged a lot in the last month or so. No real reason as to why I haven't, but mainly because I've been very busy through the holiday season. Between getting my house ready for guests, all the construction that we are trying to finish by next week, and traveling, I've had my hands full. 

On top of all the stuff I've been juggling, my family got news on Tuesday morning that my Grandfather had passed away......

I have mixed feelings about his passing. Actually, I kind of feel no feelings about his passing.


I know that makes me sound like a cold-hearted "B", but you'd have to understand a little bit about my extended family, and then I'm sure you'd understand why I can say that about someone who has died in my family. It's complicated. Unfortunately, my Grandfather made many choices in his life that led to him dying alone. This experience has been a piercing lesson for me. I don't want to be like him and die alone. I want to die like my other Grandfather did in 2000. I want to die surrounded my my family, all holding hands and telling me how much they love me. I want to die knowing that I did well by my family and that they know just how much I love them. All of them.

On a selfish note, I was supposed to be having fun at Disneyland right now during my first weekend away since my boys were born. 

:(

My husbands Christmas party was last night, so we were supposed to fly to OC together, sans twins, and have a nice weekend away together doing things on our own. All of our plans were shot to hell starting on Tuesday. First it was the news of my Grandfather passing, then Connor came down with his first cold. Neither of those events were thrilling in the least. I ended up having to change my flight to leave tomorrow so that I can leave the boys here with my husband and attend the funeral. We were gone for 2 weeks recently and with the cold that Connor had, I didn't want to drag them through flying again. It's the best thing for them, and since I love them with every.single.inch of my existence, I now put my own selfish desires aside and do what's best for my babies.

Such is life....

:)