Friday, September 30, 2011

::I Laughed, I Cried & Now It's Over

So that's it... I'm officially a non-facebooker!

I deleted my account, all of my info and all of my pictures.

It's over...and I feel so liberated!

:D

:: Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Oatmeal Rounds

I made this heavenly goodness today from a recipe that a good friend of mine sent me. These Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Oatmeal cookies can be modified to your liking with the "toppings". The recipe calls for chocolate chips and walnuts, but you can substitute with peanut butter morsels and peanuts, or whatever else you think may sound good. 

Here's the recipe...




Ingredients:
  • 3/4 cup Butter, room temperature
  • 2/3 cup Peanut Butter (I used Natural)
  • 1 cup Sugar
  • 1/2 cup packed Brown Sugar
  • 1 teaspoon Baking Powder
  • 1/2 teaspoon Baking Soda
  • 1 teaspoon Cinnamon
  • 2 Eggs
  • 1 teaspoon Vanilla Extract
  • 1 + 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
  • 2 cups Rolled Oats
  • 1 cup semisweet chocolate chips*
  • 2/3 cup chopped walnuts*

Directions:

1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees.

2. Beat together butter and peanut butter until well combined. Add sugars, baking powder, baking soda and cinnamon. Beat until combined.

3. Beat in eggs and vanilla. Beat in flour. Stir in oats, cranberries and nuts.

4. Drop by rounded teaspoons onto un-greased baking sheet. Bake 10 minutes or until light brown around edges.

5. Remove to wire racks to cool.

*Can substitute cocktail peanuts, chocolate chips, peanut butter morsels, raisins, M&M's or another type of nut.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

::Best You've Ever Had Chocolate Chip Cookies

It's no secret that I'm a huge fan of anything sweet, especially things that contain chocolate. Living at a high altitude, cooking & baking poses a bit of a challenge because sometimes things just don't come out correctly. After several failed attempts to make regular ole' chocolate chip cookies, a good friend of mine gave me this recipe to try and combat the flat cookie syndrome as a result of the elevation. I renamed them "Best You've Ever Had Chocolate Chip Cookies" because they're just that; the best I've ever had! This recipe also works great for sea-level elevations and all those in between. Next time you've got a hankering for some delectable chocolate chip cookies, give this one a try! It won't disappoint!

Ingredients:
  • 2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
  • 1 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 1 cup butter, softened
  • 1/4 cup white sugar
  • 3/4 cup packed light brown sugar
  • 2 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • 1 (3.5 ounce) package instant vanilla pudding mix
  • 2 eggs
  • 2 cups semisweet chocolate chips
Directions:
  1. Preheat your oven to 375 degrees F (190 degrees C).
  2. In a medium sized mixing bowl, combine flour, baking soda and salt and set aside
  3. In another large mixing bowl, combine butter, white sugar, brown sugar, vanilla,and pudding mix. Beat until it's smooth and creamy. Beat in eggs. Gradually stir in flour mixture. Stir in chocolate chips.
  4. Drop batter by heaping teaspoonful, about 2 inches apart, onto an ungreased cookie sheet.
  5. Bake for 7-9 minutes, or until they are lightly brown on the edges.
  6. Remove from oven and place on cooling rack.

NOTE: It will likely get dry and think towards the end, which is perfectly fine. They really do end up being moist cookies regardless because of the pudding mix. If you feel like it is too much so, or you have trouble mixing it, add a little milk just to soften it up a bit. They will probably not turn brown when they are done, so be sure to look for the lightly brown edges when it's time to take them out. You want to make sure they remain moist! It's a good idea to sometimes refrigerate some of the dough before you make it, but not at all necessary. It just serves to make a more structured cookie. 

Since I love to modify recipes, here are some things I do to spice things up a little...
  • For more chocolately cookies, add an extra handful of chocolate chips
  • If you like chopped walnuts, add 1/2 - 3/4 cup of walnuts
  • Substitute the chocolate chips for peanut butter morsels... yum!
ENJOY!

::A Topic On My Heart

One thing that I have had on my heart a lot lately is a topic that isn't widely discussed. Unfortunately, for the sake of those who are or have traveled this path, it isn't something that comes up in casual conversation. It is something that I lived in fear of for the entire duration of my pregnancy. This "thing" is called loss...

June 15th, 2010 was the day I fell in love with my babies for the first time. I'm talking the deepest of deep love you can feel. Moms, you know what I'm talking about. This love was instantaneous and gripping from the very second I saw the word "pregnant" on those little digital pee sticks. This love consumed every square inch of my body, my heart and my soul. On June 20, 2010, the day I found out I was pregnant with twins, was the day I felt true fear for the first time. Not because I was pregnant with twins (lol), but because of automatic super high risk of my pregnancy and because of the very real possibility of losing one or both of our babies. After struggling for almost a year and a half to even get pregnant and dealing with the "loss" that I felt every month, I couldn't imagine the pain that I would endure if I had to face the sobering reality of losing my baby or babies. I remember any time I even thought about it, my already puffy eyes became swollen with big tears because I couldn't even bear thinking about it. Very morbid, I know, but also very real. 

Fortunately, as you know, I was blessed with the ability to carry my boys to 35 weeks 5 days and deliver them via emergency c-section a little more than a month before they were due. By the grace of God, they only spent 3 days in the NICU and are now in great health and thriving. I am aware that this is the result of many prayers and the works of God through out the duration of my pregnancy. Every day, I look at my little guys and thank God for their tiny souls and how fulfilled my life is with them in it. 

Some of you know that when I was about 27 weeks pregnant, I was shopping at Costco with my Mom and sister the day before my baby shower and I slipped and fell on their concrete floors. I hit the left side of my belly on one of their food court benches. Aside from losing my pregnancy all together, one of my biggest fears was falling. You can only imagine what was going through my head as I sat there on that cold concrete floor waiting for the paramedics to arrive. I was taken to the hospital and monitored for several hours to make sure my babies were safe and sound. Although this shook my to my inner most core, I knew it was a reminder of just how precious life is, and how lucky I am to have the privilege to incubate two lives at the same time, all while this miracle was happening inside of me. 

I know that I am blessed to have two beautiful, healthy and lively baby boys. I also know that there are others around me who have had to travel a much more challenging path. I know in my future, the outcome may not be as planned, but one thing I rest my hope on is the fact the God is great and God is good. God is faithful and God hears my prayers. He knows my heart and he knows my path before I walk. I will continue to put my faith in God regardless of the challenges that lay ahead of me because they are what shape who I am.

For now, I continue to thank the Lord that my cup runneth over... 

Have you dealt with loss?? 
How were you able to grieve and move through it??
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011

::Later Facebook...I'm over you!

 
I have officially decided to leave the Facebook world. I have tossed around the idea before, but with all the new changes and weird privacy (or lack thereof) settings, I'm not too crazy about the idea of other creepers having access to my personal info, pictures, friends, etc. I have nothing against anyone who still chooses to be a part of FB, but it's just not for me anymore. 


I remember when I was watching the movie "The Social Network", one of the things that the character Mark Zuckerburg said in reference to the format of Facebook was that he wanted the simplicity of it to be what draws people to their site. Simplicity, it is not, especially now. I feel like as soon as I get used to a new layout or format, they change things up again. Super annoying, so I'm just over the whole thing. 


All good things must come to an end, right? Facebook reconnected me with a lot of old friends and co-workers, and has kept me in touch with many for the last few years. For now, though, I'm just going to stick to my family website and my personal blog to keep in touch with people. I figure that I already have too many complicated things in my life, so it's about time I did some house keeping, ya know?

For all of you who occasionally check in with my posts, please "follow" my blog so we can be sure not to lose touch.You can also follow me on Twitter (I'm more of a stalker than a tweeter, but it's still fun to be in the loop) at @katiefermin.


How do you feel about Facebook and other "social networking" sites? 
Do you use them, and if so, which ones? 
Do you every feel like your life is on display? 
Sunday, September 18, 2011

::Goodbyes Are Never Easy!

In the past week, I've had to say goodbyes to a handful of some pretty special people in my life. Some are "goodbye for now", while others are just a simple "see ya later". Some are more uncertain which never leaves a good feeling behind. Goodbyes, no matter the circumstances, are never fun or easy. They always leave some sort if void, as if what was meant to be hasn't actually happened yet. It's like a good movie that has a crappy ending. It just totally sucks.

My boys and I ventured to SoCal (again) to attend my older sisters surprise 30th birthday party last weekend. The party was super awesome and "J" was totally surprised! She even told me that my kiddos and I were her favorite part of her birthday... How sweet is that?! Although we've had a rough go in the past, it always gets me really shaky when I am a part of things like that. I realize that much of what happens(ed) is and was completely out of my control, but that doesn't change the fact that I still wanted everything to be perfect for her on her special day. We had a fabulous weekend celebrating with good friends and family, and then the weekend was over and we had to say our goodbyes to everyone. Fortunately, many of my extended family members were able to meet my babies, so it made it a tad bit easier to deal with the send off because it was such a great weekend.

During this weekend in SoCal, my parents, younger sister and I took a little trip to visit my ailing grandfather in his assisted living home so he could finally have the chance to meet two of his great grandsons. Any time I see any of my extended family, I try to prepare myself for all possible scenarios and remind myself to not have any expectations of how I think our "visits" should go. When I set the bar high I'm always disappointed, so in order to keep the mood lighter, I decided to take everything during our visit with a grain of salt. Obviously, you've probably picked up on the fact that I have a different kind of relationship with my extended family, including my grandparents. I like to give the analogy that I don't have "cookie baking grandparents". Regardless, they are still my family, and I wanted to make an effort to see them for the sake of my babies. Needless to say, the visit was short and sweet, and ended up being much more pleasant that I had anticipated. See what I mean about having no expectations?! It paid off this time... no guarantees for next time ;)

Another goodbye that we had to deal with a few days ago was with a great friend of ours. This was one of those uncertain ones. Not sure if they are gonna come back, and there's always that chance that you may not see them again. Nonetheless, we sent him off with lots of hugs and love.

Goodbyes are not easy, and they definitely aren't fun. Unfortunately, they are a necessary part of life. As the seasons of life bring us into new chapters with new "weather", we can only hope that with these new seasons come new friends and people who are close to our hearts.

How do you deal with saying goodbye to someone you love or care about?
Monday, September 5, 2011

::The Meaning of Labor Day

There are many days throughout the year that we as American's celebrate. Some of these days we are just in it for the BBQ and a beautiful, sunny day off work. One question I ask myself now that I'm an "adult" is whether or now I actually know or understand the meaning behind these days that we celebrate. I'm embarrassed to say that many times, I am ignorant to the true meaning of these holidays. This year for Labor Day, I did a little research on the meaning of Labor Day...


Labor Day, the first Monday in September, is a creation of the labor movement and is dedicated to the social and economic achievements of American workers. It constitutes a yearly national tribute to the contributions workers have made to the strength, prosperity, and well-being of our country


This simple explanation resounded within my heart because of the endless list of things that I as an American take for granted every single day. I have many freedoms and liberties that so many people around the world do not have because of the pioneering efforts of the many men and women that came and went before me. Let us remember on these beautiful, sunny holidays what we are actually celebrating.


God Bless You & God Bless America!

How does your family celebrate Labor Day?
Sunday, September 4, 2011

::Sunday, Simply Stated

Here's my Sunday, simply stated...
::Blessed
::Loved
::Busy
::Frantic
::Patient
::Tired
::Excited
::Anxious
::Giddy
::Fortunate
Friday, September 2, 2011

::Feeling Conflicted...

Since C & I moved from California to Colorado about a year and a half ago, we are usually not able to celebrate birthdays, anniversaries, holidays, special events, etc with our family members. This was definitely something we took into consideration when we discussed the pros and cons of moving to a different state, however we ultimately decided that it was in our best interest (financially and otherwise) to begin our lives as a newly married couple in a state other than California. At first, it was a little lonely when the weekends would roll around and we would be alone in our big house all by ourselves and being unfamiliar with our new surroundings. About 7 months after we moves, my parents and younger sister followed us out here, which was amazing timing as I found out I was pregnant 5 days after they moved into their new house... obviously God has his hand in that! Even though we are super grateful to have my parents and sister close to us, we still miss our other family members that still live in CA and NV. It's especially difficult when birthdays roll around, or holidays and such and we can't all be together for one reason or another. 


Two upcoming events raise have brought these conflicted feelings in my heart... the first one being about my older sister J who will be turning 30 in about a week, and the second is our niece/goddaughter E's 3rd birthday in December. It really sucks that we aren't around for these special moments in time. Things like this used to not bother me as much when I was younger, but now that I'm getting older and married with my own kids, quality family time is extra important to me. I wish I had an endless amount of money to travel whenever and where ever I wanted to, and I wish it was a lot easier to travel with my two kiddos. Such is life, I guess. It is just a big bummer that my boys don't have as much time with our family members as I'd like. One things that I try to make a big effort at is to make every moment count when we are together with our loved ones. 


A wise man once said, "I don't care how poor a man is; if he has family, he's rich." These words hold very true in my heart. Give you babies, spouse and/or parents & siblings an extra hug next time you see them just because. Your cup will runneth over!

Do you live far away from any of your friends &/or family? 
How are you able to stay involved with them?
Thursday, September 1, 2011

::"Are They Twins?"

I'm always blown away when people come up to me and ask, "Are they twins?" (crickets.....) I just wanna say, "Nope. I just had two babies days apart."

Stupid questions people ask....

I suppose I'd be a little more understanding if people would ask if they are identical or fraternal, if they were boys or girls (cause sometimes it's hard to tell when they're little baldies), but really people?? Are they twins?? Come on now... Just had to throw that out there ;)

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